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NO ENTRY
02:01
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How do you know if your kid’s at risk?
How do you notice?
If they want, so bad, to be somewhere else
that they finally kill themselves.
I couldn’t see the signs
dressed in red and white.
I couldn’t recognise how hard it had been,
just to keep yourself alive.
No entry,
it’s still a crime.
I tried to listen,
you couldn’t lie.
No entry,
it’s not your time.
and even if I intervene,
will you ever change your mind?
No entry,
no sacrifice.
You planned your exits,
and I hid mine.
If your god is gracious,
the lord is kind?
Then who was telling you
to take your own life.
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FURNACE
03:07
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Are you hurting?
Are you cursive?
Where’s your mercy?
Are you drunk?
I followed the trail of your blood
I watched the room go up
you smell like petrol
and the phone lines are cut
the curtains are burning
and all that I see
is your body hiding from me
Are you hurting?
Are you cursive?
Where’s your mercy?
Are you drunk?
I followed the trail of your blood
Would you treat yourself the way you treat
everyone you love?
Haven’t you suffered enough?
the ceremony
kick the door in
break the hinges
I’ve been practising all of my stitches.
screaming out your name
but you’re never listening.
sedentary,
while you handcuff yourself to your seat
you say it’s the best
and you won’t hurt anybody else
choking as you swallow the key
Are you hurting?
Are you cursive?
Where’s your mercy?
Are you drunk?
I followed the trail of your blood
Would you treat yourself the way you treat
everyone you love?
Haven’t you suffered enough?
I won’t be leaving quietly
after the way you’ve spoken to me
come down from the balcony
your kindness, you’ve earned it
but your body a furnace
I won’t let you burn in it.
Are you hurting?
Are you cursive?
Where’s your mercy?
Are you drunk?
I followed the trail of your blood
Would you treat yourself the way you treat
everyone you love?
Haven’t you suffered enough?
Have you hurt enough?
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NO THANKS
03:15
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I felt pretty scared,
you, crying halfway up the stairs
your hands look pretty red,
and I don’t think it’s fair
I don’t think it speaks,
any differently
from the sirens calling for you from the street
get off me.
I’ve been careless,
with my confidence
pulling out my hair and still
lying to my parents.
I had it all and I kept it for myself
You made me promise,
but I can’t keep that as well.
This is why I hate your help,
this is why I can’t trust anybody else
telling me to keep the cut clean
cauterise it if you need
but there won’t be any other chance
please don’t leave me by myself.
Watching as it starves,
hanging from the arms
giving it an inch will end up giving you a scar
it’s only fun until somebody gets hurt
so who’s gonna stick the knife in first.
This is why I hate your help,
but this is why I can’t trust anybody else
always telling me to keep the cut clean
cauterise it if you need
but there won’t be any other chance
please don’t leave me by myself.
it looks painful,
to know that you’re capable
of caring for everyone else
but sparing yourself
that same act of kindness
your chemicals work with violence.
this is why I hate your help
this is why I can’t trust anybody else.
This is why I hate your help,
but this is why I can’t trust anybody else
always telling me to keep the cut clean
cauterise it if you need
but there won’t be any other chance
please don’t leave me by myself.
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4. |
HALLOWEEN
03:00
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So are you asking me,
why I look so thin?
I’m sure it’s coming from
somewhere warm
but there’s panic in your handwriting.
I can hear it when you speak,
desperate and quietly.
(are you gonna say it to me)
chained me to the headboard
but the wood is splintering
breathing in blood like oxygen.
I tried to believe
every Halloween
that if I gave enough,
paid in blood
I’d have you back for good.
So I let it bleed
I would trade anything
you can take my life instead
‘cause I hear hell ain’t all that bad.
I heard the front door ringing
I heard the bell crack when it fell from the ceiling
I felt the church collapse
but the whole damn choir kept singing from the back.
So we are here to say
what a shame
(what would you say about me?)
the only thing I ever learned about luck
was the lack thereof.
and the crowd ran rings around the cenotaph
laying down wreaths
made of barbed wire and broken glass
there’s blood on the contract
there’s a burning in the forecast.
I tried to believe
every Halloween
that if I gave enough,
paid in blood
I’d have you back for good.
So I let it bleed
I would trade anything
you can take my life instead
‘cause I hear hell ain’t all that bad.
So we are here to say
what a shame,
what a life it could’ve been.
So we are here to say
what a shame
take my life instead
I’m undeserving.
I tried to believe
every Halloween
that if I gave enough,
paid in blood
I’d have you back for good.
So I let it bleed
I would trade anything
you can take my life instead
‘cause I hear hell ain’t all that bad.
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NO ACCIDENT
03:26
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You know me more than I care to admit,
you called the ambulance
when I didn’t want it
Practising patience,
just kept me nervous
‘cause I think your accident
happened on purpose.
I still have a hand to hold,
You still have blood on your clothes
You only want the best for everyone else
but darling no one else comes close.
And all the ways,
you ruin my day
you say how much you hate the one
who made you this way
And all the ways,
I heard you explain
how no one could ever want someone so vain.
If that’s the case,
why did I stay?
I can stand by the bedside
of your hospital room
or I can guard the door
until you tell me not to.
I can only give as much as you’re willing to take
I can burn down the church
and build a statue in its place
My house of worship
your name in cursive
I’ll chain myself to its base.
And all the ways
you feel so ashamed
for how you look
and who you fuck
you just can’t seem to shake
And all the ways,
you said my name
torture myself thinking
I won’t catch you saying it again.
say it again.
You picked me up
when I was starving
I only got better under your arm
and I know you were terrified
but look where we hare,
I had my surgery but you got the scars.
All I know
is that if all I had to offer was to suffer in your place,
I’d bury myself the same day.
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6. |
DOG
02:51
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So,
is this your commentary?
Say it again, but use my name
say it again but to your daughters face
say it again with a brick between your teeth
So,
do you see it differently?
Have you seen the way she holds her keys?
Did you let her speak?
Or was that the hammer
at the end of your court case
letting you leave.
If you want it,
then take it from me.
You’re on the wrong end of an emergency
I’ve got your blood dripping off my teeth
boys like you should be afraid of me.
I am not your friend.
I know exactly what you’re reaching for
but you can’t have everything.
Again,
I am not your friend.
I’ll make you cry at the alter,
burn at the stake
if you’re scared,
well you should be.
So safe in your own body,
flicking your switchblade
tongue in your cheek.
All that you have
deserves to be buried
and I’ll set fire to the cemetery.
Grab him by the neck with both hands.
explain to him the only way he understands
punishment, politics,
the taste of your spit.
Pull him by the hair
and hang him from it.
I am not your friend.
I won’t tell you again
I know exactly what you’re reaching for
but you can’t have everything
Again.
I am not your friend.
I’ll make you cry at the alter,
burn at the stake
are you scared?
‘Cause you should be.
so which one leaves?
The hand you bite,
or the one that feeds.
Tight on your neck when you want to speak
but dogs like you should be kept on their lead.
why don’t you try and bite me?
I’m not your friend.
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